Keinemusikfurdashund (dethcokediscord) wrote,

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We have to go back.

As some of you may know, I am going through a hard core nostalgia phase. In fact, I think I have been doing this way before picking up on journaling again. I'm supposed to have a baby in the next year or two and that finality of the end of my youth is making me miss past eras, as epic as they were. I had a good run at being a fucked up kid. And I find that every time I try to relive old moments, I only end up disappointed. The time is not the only thing that has changed. So too have the characters and the places in which we played these roles. There is no longer an island to get back to. There is no way to find it even if it were there.

I have no idea what this all has to do with my recovery but I'm beginning to feel like EVERYTHING has something to do with it. The obvious relation this whole thing has to it is the fact that a very dear friend of mine is drinking his life away and needs help. I feel like I could finally offer some of that help. Yet I wasn't intervened on and I can't imagine how that feels. All I know is the miraculous realization of a problem. Not all of us are so lucky. Many of us need that mirror brought to our faces and a surrounding of love to allow us to heal.
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